uh. saw this online and i just. anyway i think you somehow managed to put words to a kind of trans experience i don't think i've ever elsewhere read. love the way you've described everything. the metaphors. the gore. hell the erotica. the entire experience was fucking great and... i only aspire to be as good as you one day because. the longing the yearning the. everything holy fuck. i think you really managed to pinpoint it in a way that other sanitised authors haven't. you've portrayed a fucked up but comforting relationship, so congrats because as another fellow transmasc holy hell i now want this <3
even though the fact that english isn't my first language, making some plot points incomprehensible because of the punctuation, this killed and resurrected me and made me a new person and oh fuck how i Loved the "destroy me again" part, because it makes me think of the person i really shouldn't talk to again, but i really want to
im dying, longing, and im translating this into russian to haunt my friends forever and ever with words that will haunt me forever and ever too as a transmasc person and as a person whose flaws are very obvious
I created an account just to comment on your works.
This story is so enchanting. The obsessive, unhealthy want that they both have for eachother seems to become the only healthy thing in their lives. I've read through it three times already and I'll probably read it a few times more. First time I read it in a horny frenzy at 2 am, and honestly it reads better when I cooled off a little.
I'm pre-T and a lot of my anxiety over hrt mirrors the MCs, so this hit very close to home. My endo appointment is in three days. I'm kind of getting off to the idea of medical transition, just as much as to the force masc elements in this story. And honestly there's fucking nothing wrong with it.
That slow seduction, the feeling of losing control (even though MC could have stopped Jason at any point), it's just chef's kiss. I think my favourite moment is when Jason tells MC that he is going to increase the dose. The little moments of noticing the bodily changes - just amazing.
I'm transmasc. I read this over the course of several days because I needed to take breaks from the intensity. This was the emotional equivalent of a concussion from a roller coaster.
The way you write about trans internet dynamics and different transmasc eras/subcultures and detransition is such a gut punch. A quote that stuck with me is: "All of it: you can sure I care about it, I care about your mental wellness, but trauma-dumping is tantamount to sin, please can you get support with the friends you don’t have, the therapy you can’t afford, the doctors that hate you, the time off from work that you can’t get. So you can turn into someone that doesn’t deserve exile.”
I've been following all kinds of transmasc-internet-centered stories like Max Graves' What Happens Next or Hal Schrieve's Vivian's Ghost. Transfag Home Video shines uniquely and captures the feeling of flinching in real life in a terrible social situation. This story is a gem kind of like a geode cracked open with ragged edges. Thank you. I'm going to be re-reading this for a long time.
this story is the hottest thing i've ever read but it left me with a deep unspeakable longing that haunts me even now, so it's impossible to say whether it's good or not
thank you and also fuck you, i was just trying to get off and i got suckered into thinking deeply about my fraught relationship to masculinity 10/10 would eat again
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uh. saw this online and i just. anyway i think you somehow managed to put words to a kind of trans experience i don't think i've ever elsewhere read. love the way you've described everything. the metaphors. the gore. hell the erotica. the entire experience was fucking great and... i only aspire to be as good as you one day because. the longing the yearning the. everything holy fuck. i think you really managed to pinpoint it in a way that other sanitised authors haven't. you've portrayed a fucked up but comforting relationship, so congrats because as another fellow transmasc holy hell i now want this <3
even though the fact that english isn't my first language, making some plot points incomprehensible because of the punctuation, this killed and resurrected me and made me a new person and oh fuck how i Loved the "destroy me again" part, because it makes me think of the person i really shouldn't talk to again, but i really want to
im dying, longing, and im translating this into russian to haunt my friends forever and ever with words that will haunt me forever and ever too as a transmasc person and as a person whose flaws are very obvious
I created an account just to comment on your works.
This story is so enchanting. The obsessive, unhealthy want that they both have for eachother seems to become the only healthy thing in their lives. I've read through it three times already and I'll probably read it a few times more. First time I read it in a horny frenzy at 2 am, and honestly it reads better when I cooled off a little.
I'm pre-T and a lot of my anxiety over hrt mirrors the MCs, so this hit very close to home. My endo appointment is in three days. I'm kind of getting off to the idea of medical transition, just as much as to the force masc elements in this story. And honestly there's fucking nothing wrong with it.
That slow seduction, the feeling of losing control (even though MC could have stopped Jason at any point), it's just chef's kiss. I think my favourite moment is when Jason tells MC that he is going to increase the dose. The little moments of noticing the bodily changes - just amazing.
Thank you so much for this!
hot and painful, red and raw, lurid as fuck. will be holding onto this one for a long time
I'm transmasc. I read this over the course of several days because I needed to take breaks from the intensity. This was the emotional equivalent of a concussion from a roller coaster.
The way you write about trans internet dynamics and different transmasc eras/subcultures and detransition is such a gut punch. A quote that stuck with me is: "All of it: you can sure I care about it, I care about your mental wellness, but trauma-dumping is tantamount to sin, please can you get support with the friends you don’t have, the therapy you can’t afford, the doctors that hate you, the time off from work that you can’t get. So you can turn into someone that doesn’t deserve exile.”
I've been following all kinds of transmasc-internet-centered stories like Max Graves' What Happens Next or Hal Schrieve's Vivian's Ghost. Transfag Home Video shines uniquely and captures the feeling of flinching in real life in a terrible social situation. This story is a gem kind of like a geode cracked open with ragged edges. Thank you. I'm going to be re-reading this for a long time.
had me yearning on a different level @_@ great read
this story is the hottest thing i've ever read but it left me with a deep unspeakable longing that haunts me even now, so it's impossible to say whether it's good or not
Thank you so, so much. It's a deep honor to have anything I write affect someone this much
thank you and also fuck you, i was just trying to get off and i got suckered into thinking deeply about my fraught relationship to masculinity 10/10 would eat again